yes, finally. this username has outstayed its welcome. and though i've had it forever.. i just don't like it anymore. it doesn't reflect me well enough and isn't professional in any way at all, so i'm not going to use it. its still going to exist though, i refuse to take it down. but just going to start using my newer account: so please, if you like my artwork and would like to stay updated, please watch that account. <3

so far, pretty cool. i love the atmosphere and seeing weird people all the time. the classes are starting off really slow, i feel like i'm a freshman in high school again [a bit, not entirely]. my favorite class so far is my drawing class, pretty much because my teacher actually explains about drawing instead of just being like "draw this". i like that a lot. and he said something along the lines of "you're here to learn" and hearing that makes me happy. i feel like my time at ocsa was not to learn, but to just do art. i hardly learned anything there unless i taught myself or something like that. but here, i'm paying to be taught and i love that. i feel like i don't automatically have to be amazing at what i do [as much as i'd love to] so i'm going to try to just accept the pace of the classes and do my best. [and better when the time calls for it!] i haven't really made many new friends yet, but i feel like i have 4 years to do that and i shouldn't be in a rush. plus it takes time to get used to me i guess. i think i'm just weird. makes me want to change a bit but then again NO I WON'T. because i'm NINA and thats it. :] so i hope everyone is doing good and such. i love you all! <33

i would love to let everyone know that i've finally written a story. about a character. its very simple, and of course, for children. its about "owlboy"- the boy who wears an owl suit. i find it absolutely adorable and i can't wait to get started. i'm going to do it all by hand and by that i guess i mean traditional. i'm going to bind it myself and everything. i cannot wait to get started! i'm definitly going to do a lot of sketching and roughdrafs before its done so i know its absolutely perfect! ahh i'm so happy right now :]

today in the mail got my AP scores. late, because i moved and they had to be forwarded. excited, i rip open the letter and stare, blankly at the page that i was expecting to bring mostly good news. i can honestly say i hadn't prepared for the terrible news i was looking at. i had been proud, thinking i had done well on at least two of the tests [those being art history and studio design] and to see the scores my jaw literally dropped. i feel this was very unfair. i worked really hard on my art classes and the other 3 classes aside i thought i would score at least decently well. so when i see these obviously not-that-good-at-all scores i'm am in disbelief and also quite hurt. i feel lied to, as if no one told me to expect the worse because this could be a chance. i won't blame other people though, its not their fault if i make mistakes or anything. but it seems i was tricked into thinking i would do amazing, after all i too thought i would do quite well. seems i didn't, so now i'm hurt, dissapointed, and angry. i talked to my mom about this and she just told me "you got into ringling though!" and my thoughts, "yeah, before they knew i sucked.." but oh well. i'm going to have to get over this and in less than a month i'll be at ringling, hopefully doing better than i am today.

this summer seems like its going to go by very fast. which makes me excited. i cannot wait for college. i'm going to be permanently excited. and even though this summer feels like its going to go by fast, i still need to make art. but at the moment i have little to no inspiration. so i'd like to get some. i'm not asking but if you have something inspiring i'd like to see/hear/eat it. :] i hope i can submit something soon.